The same yet different.
Yesterday I turned 21. For two of my friends it was the anniversary of our friendship. Next week is the beginning of my final college year. Summer is ending. It’s a time to reflect for me and I came across this the other day - my final journal in my IDS class my freshmen year. It still remains true on many accounts, and yet has changed some.
Driving the ten hours away from home was something that I was not looking forward to. The thing I was looking forward to was college - the freedom that all teenagers desire. When I pulled into the parking lot and checked into my dorm, my first thoughts about college were naive and stupid. I thought college would be the party of my life, and I would not have to deal with that nagging mother of mine back home. I was wrong.
College has taught me so much about who I am as a person and what it is I want to do with my life. Not only have I discovered the buff in me at WT but I have discovered what it exactly means to be Tyler Sweeney. Aside from learning that I cannot handle the cold or late night trips to Waffle House with a group of friends just before my seven am class is not a good idea, I have learned what it is that I actually value in life: honesty, compassion, and just living in the little moments that life throws at us. Through my new found friends and family here at WT and in Canyon, I have come to notice the importance of honesty. Whether it is in relationships or school assignments I find that honesty still serves as the best policy. Compassion from others is something else that I have found to be rare in life. When I see a kid fall down and their papers fly everywhere I try and help them out. Whenever I see someone enter a door after me, I hold it open for them. It is acts such as those that I find so rare today and that I value in another person. Living in the moment is another thing that should not be taken for granted. Those times when my friends get together and just watch TV together on a bed are those that I look around at the group and feel most at home. I think these are the people who are my family; these are the people that I want to be around.
When I started college, I thought the world was in one set way and that’s how we have to life. I thought I knew who I was and where I wanted to go in life. I was wrong. College has opened my eyes, in the sense that that I am now more open minded, and respectful to those around me. I now find myself not judging those that enter into the building as I had before. I not longer hold those pre cognitive ideas about the person sitting next to me in class. If there is any opinions or beliefs that I would like to change about myself it would be that I think too little of myself. When I came to college I lacked the confidence in myself to succeed in whatever I do. Today, I still feel this way somewhat. I am this nerdy, lanky kid at heart and I feel that I am inadequate to compete with the best of the best. As time has gone on I have realized that I can compete with the best and excel in whatever it is that I do. My career goals have stayed the same in that I want to be a news anchor. My academic goals, however, have changed. I am no longer willing to settle for the least amount that I can do and am currently pushing myself like I have never done so before. I am currently getting more involved in school and my friendships than I have ever before in my life. Those ten hours that I drove to start a new life in college and in Canyon have become the best decision that I have made so far in my life. I am moving forward to a better place and like the direction that I am heading in. I hope to continue to grow as a person and discover exactly who it is I am.